I Have A Question

1. Why do I have to be like someone?
2. Why do I have to have a body like hers?
3. Why do I have to score like him?
4. Why do I have to earn like them?
5. Why do I have to, have to, get out of my comfort zone to get somewhere?
6. Why do I have to keep planning to be somewhere?
7. Why is that, whatever I am doing is just not enough, lacking something?
8. Why is that every marketing strategy is designed for 4 second attention span, but I am the one left behind because of lack of attention?
9. Why is it that people make you feel bad for things that you just have, you didn't ask for, and to begin with you didn't even know that it is a bad thing. You are born and your mind is conditioned and shaped to hate yourself and to focus on things you don't have, why?
10. Why is it that our inner self is always speaking shit to us, abusing us? How come we have to learn to not do this as skill, from the scratch?
11. Why is it that without spending yourself completely you cannot achieve anything?
12. After going through extremes, and finally achieving something, why is it all empty and void?
13. Why am I always wishing my current time away?
14. Why do I have this feeling that I haven't done enough, I haven't struggled enough, and I deserve being a failure?
15. Why is kindness one sided? When all of us are taught to be kind to each other no matter what, then how come some are allowed to forget with no consequences?
16. Why, why, why I can't be just comfortable and do something I will put my heart into?
17. Why is it obvious and acceptable, that I am miserable and "successful" or at least reaching towards so called "success" and its ok to be miserable in the process?
18. Why can't I just be?
19. Why is it that only things that destroy you inside and outside worth fighting for? Why do we have to keep fighting until we are all spent, and still keep fighting?
20. Why do I have to keep fixing myself, and keep planning ahead?
21. Why can't I just get adjusted to my present, and stay like that?
22. Why am I answerable to so many people?
23. Why do I have to respect an abuser just because they came on earth before me?
24. Why do I have to label my relationships? Why am I supposed to play a certain role, just because I identify as a certain gender?
25. Why am I scared to speak my own truth? Who weaved this fear in my fabric?

PS : I don't have any more attention span to sort my thoughts and think of something for now, so I am gonna leave it at that for now. 15th March, 2022 17:04